i love the way you remind people about the rainy weather, telling people to take care and not catch a cold, i love the way you smile from behind the hidden where no one is supposed to see your cheeks blush, i love the way sing along to your cellphone's ringtone, before you let it all go with a sheepish laugh, i love the way your hair falls into your eyes, the way they cover part of your face, i love the way you hold the other's hand, how you take it so gently into yours, though it isn't mine.
(: so it's like this, i can keep wishing you were here.
edit: it's not a poem. i repeat, NOT. so let's leave it as a list of sentences, broken up with a push of the ENTER button, yey?
last night, i cried to sleep while listening to 'Miseinen' and 'Best friends'. especially during the part where the guitar solos come in and the part where everyone sings together. the songs always give me a feeling of a 'conclusion', like the feeling of something that's parting or coming to an end, and it makes me sad. and so it makes me wanna hug my 5 awesome gazeguys T-T
random: FINALLY MY NEW GLASSES ARE DONE! NO MORE SQUINTING OF EYES THANK GOODNESS! 8D
...um
my words and my thoughts are fading. they're fading away from me, they're fading away from everyone else. they'll never get through to those that needs to hear them. because they never seem to make anymore sense (even to me), i'll just leave it there and stop trying to explain myself.
all i'm left with are unspoken emotions and feelings, but they don't do me any good. for now they're of no use to me, i don't want them.
come mend what's broken if you could.
sorry, i'm just emo lately >.>;; need a dosage of jrock.
20061024
why do i love this man
^ it's a statement, not a question.
uh right, i'm bloody tired since camp. funny cause when i decided to buck up for exams i miraculously turned into a light sleeper (<-a TOTAL surprise) and now i feel like doing nothing else but sleep. maybe it's the contacts. i need my glasses asap! gawd staring at the computer kills my eyes even with contacts on.
i want the brown and gold flesh imp jacket but it costs $69.90 D: i hope i'll get sponsored for it, i want it as an early christmas present (: i don't care about a new handphone anymore. most of them suck anyway.
i think i'm suffering from a mental uh.. something. i can't do graphics, i can't translate, i can't do anything right, i don't FEEL like doing anything even if it's something that i enjoy doing, and i feel like shit. my mind refuses to give any attention beyond 8 minutes. i want to sleep. but i can't sleep at night, because of my darn bolster. makes me mad everytime. okay i am officially wierd, harbouring a grudge against my bolster for not being.. you know who.
screw maths tomorrow, i'm going to sleep through it. screw language arts proposal too. i mean wtf, there's only two days of school left! i have other plans like.. nevermind.
the house is a battlefield, why do i always get dragged in? it's not MY fault dammit. i'm miserable i wanna get my ass outta here D:
20061023
but proclaiming this love makes me sad D:
sigh.
shall try not to think about the matter, & it's not like i have much to say anyway.
sigh.
translating bis's blog entries are getting harder it seems. i don't know why. and i feel demoralised when i'm unable to translate them decently. if only translating japanese to english was as easy as translating chinese to english ): especially maru's entries! *shakes him* I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOUR SLANGGGG!!! D:
on the other hand, i need a new bolster! if i get a new bolster what should i name it? reipyon? reitachu? reitappi? reippon? reirei? or shall i be inspired by the famous "yoroshikuPOP" and name it reitaPOP? x) once i've got a new bolster and decided on a name, i will hug it reeeaaa~lly tight to sleep everynight :3
why are you so far? D:
20061022
oh my reita x)
random musings: so my birthday falls somewhere in the middle of aquarius and pisces. however i like to refer to myself as a piscean (?) hoho. but damn! reita, uruha, miyavi belong to gemini, gemini and virgo respectively and me being a sucker for horoscopes, knows that those don't match the sign of a piscean D: how? nevermind, since i'm half here half there i can change! so for now i'd like to think of myself as an aquarian (: aquarians can match better with geminis and virgos no? so if on certain days my love for kanon (cancerian) shoots up, i'll go back being a piscean :3 I AM SUCH A NUTHEAD XD I MUST BE BORED!
my two favourite music videos from the GazettE (: and reita is much love. *goes to a corner and starts to spazz, shall spare everyone from the torture*
uh, headbanging is good smex kthxbye.
20061020
back to civilisation!
seriously, i've been through so much in the last 5 days (especially surviving the land of shit) so honestly i'm all game for any setbacks. just bring it on, i'm tough! (: i think i've slimmed down and gained a bit of muscles and tan during the camp. it was horrible i thought i'd never make it out alive! but i did anyway so yay 8D anyway, i was occupied with OBS, but now that i'm officially officially back, WHAT'S AN UPDATE WITHOUT MY SPAMMAGE? 8D HOHOHO! EXCITED NOT?!
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okay lor, nevermind; as long as i like can already HAH. damn, my jrock list never seems to end! it just keeps increasing and increasing XD besides being officially completely gazette-ified and reita-fied, i've found new loves! (cause i'm greedy haha, haha.) i wanna cuddle them all! *spazzes* hurhur. so let's start with the uh.. more normal ones before we go on to the uh.. slightly more 'special' ones XD
bis (believe in style) my little oshare kei ganbaru band! gawd they're damn cute, not an cafe kinda cute but in a different sense. currently i'm working on translating their blog entries so yeah, it's actually quite fun and i like doing it :3 they make me happy, while an cafe makes me hyper lol. and gah! i think i really have a thing for guys with lip piercings hoho. tsukasa's the blonde guitarist and he's super cute and small, can match my height easily XD love him to bits hoho, i'm always wondering if he doesn't wear his lip piercings and if he drinks water will the water flow out from the holes in his mouth HAHA X) there's also the good-looking vocalist maru, who seriously looks good even without make up ^^ then there's drummer seika and bassist shunsuke. seika spams a lot on his blog while shunsuke smokes too much (but he can cook really well!) XD they're more to the punk side i guess, well at least for this video lah. bisbisbis!!! *spams* XD
LM.C (lovely mocochang) made up of ex-perriot guitarist aiji and maya who was formerly the guitarist of miyavi's live band (who was known as maaya-tan back then). they've got an interesting genre of music and just started off major only recently and yeah i got into them less than a month ago. maya's hell adorable! x)
i'm trying to find a certain music video from youtube to put up but apparently i can't find it cause i think they took it off or something D: it's okay when i find it i shall put it up. it's kinda a bit of hip hop and rock fused together x) i really like that video, i thought the lights and stage were really cool, so were the outfits XD i feel like getting one like theirs! and seriously, maya's mouth is like permanently like this -> *o* LMAO.
12012 now this is a visual indies band that i really like mainly because of their music and style. so far i'm pleased with what i've heard, but i wanna get more of their songs, because now i only have a few and that makes me sad rawr D: okay plus points would be that the vocalist (wataru) and the drummer (i forgot his name) are pretty cute too, and wataru reminds me of ruki for some reason o_o;; er okay don't mind the wierd costumes XD i really like the morbid mood of their songs? they seem depressing to me x) ichi ni zero ichi ni!
RAWR I NEED TO FIND THE MUSIC VIDEO OF 'ROCK THE LM.C'! D: oh well but that's all for my new loves for now (: when school closes i want to:
% get my hair cut (i need a cut damn badly!) % get a part time job? % probably pierce my ears? % translate more (: % watch NLSG DVD over and over and over again XD % shopping etc. etc.
and by this weekend i really need to get my hands on Neogenesis vol 7 and get myself a new pair of glasses, if not i'm really going blind cause i can't see unless i wear my contacts. i dropped my glasses in the sea and my dad's mad about it. (it was expensive D: ) stupid.
20061013
TADAIMAAAAA~ : D (i'm back!)
urh, but it's not like people give a shit right? i've driven people away long enough to make them not come back (: or so i think.
but who cares, i'm back with a nuu~ layout, and me love it to bits because.. IT'S GAZETTE LIKE HELL YEAH. (reitareitaomgomg!!11!eleven1!oneone!!) i could just stare it for--ever 8D reita is such hot smex, he wants to be raped hoho. oops.
yeah well during my 2 month hiatus, i had a great time online over at my lj (: but i had a shit time offline. mainly because everything that could go wrong, went wrong. made life (almost) a fscking hell, along with the times i tried to block out everyone by not talking to them but failed, cause there was school.. and friends. oh well but now that's over, i should be looking forward. so yeah i'm all okay now (: i won't bite, maybe :3
yeerrrrrr and i did i friends' link cut :D no offence and definitely not to be taken personally. i was never a fan of linking many people, 'cause i thought it always got messy in the end. and i don't exactly read every single one's blog everytime. so for those who stayed, YAY and for those who didn't, mouuu~ it's not like i won't be able to find you through someone else's links, no? it's much neater now (: will be doing cuts often, sad to say : and my jrock list never seems to stop growing XD (not that it's a long list) but yeah, i am never contented! need to keep adding more and more once i've found new eye-candies (with good music duh) will spam more later I PROMISEEE HAHAHAHAHA. (and drive away MOREEE people!!! hurraaayyyy~)
OH REVIVALLLLLLL. *dances* (has gone mad after hiatus if you've noticed)
&!VODKA&IRONY
{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT & somedays on mute mode
&!SLIP'N'SLIDE
A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D
Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good.
With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings.
Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality.
Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life.
Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.
Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.
